Who am I ???

I do not understand what I want. I do not know what I need. I was not enjoying the rest of my life now. smiles and laughter only apparent shadow, and even then only briefly, then what do I need to restore the old me?

great! none of the 'blood' who understands me. sadly, I can not unite with 'blood' that flows in my body. Just anger that comes when we are together. so the peak of the feelings of boredom. Chills and FEEL ME ANGRY.

God, if you allow me to dream of happiness in the future, I will smile, oh my Lord. not a smile that only a shadow, but the real meaning of a smile.